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| Staying off of AIM/IRC/ICQ has proven astoundingly easy. Getting myself to do what I need to do instead has proven more difficult. The problem is not remedied by removing the symptom. *> It's been several days, coming up on two weeks, that I've been off that "anxiety program", and already it's astounding just how much I've regressed. I find myself wanting to "stop" (that is, existing) again, at least more strongly than I did during the short time I was keeping up with the program. That's not seeking suicide, Kyle, that's just wishing I'd dissolve or something. Ugh. How can simple, silly things like speeches and getting a job be so scary, how hard is it to believe that I'm actually supposed to go out and participate in life instead of just sitting back and watching it develop, and how can I be fooling myself into feeling so calm about this? *> | ||||||
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